My ability to exercise my true intelligence and potential is directly relational to my ability to experience all of my past and present pain and move through that pain until I’ve freed myself from it. It’s an icky process and yet, incredibly rewarding.
Why Do I Feel Numb Emotionally?
If you’re asking “why do I feel numb emotionally,” the answer is usually this: you’ve gotten so good at avoiding pain that you’ve accidentally shut off your ability to feel anything at all.
Numbness is the body’s emergency brake. When pain becomes unbearable, we learn to not feel. And that works—temporarily. But it comes with a cost.
Mental Strategies Limit Potential
There are all kinds of mental techniques to get you out of your pain. You probably know more than a few. This avoidance of pain via intellectual strategy is a sure fire way to limit your intelligence, potential, and ability to bring your true soul power into the physical dimension.
When we have pain we switch into survival mode. We either completely block it out as a coping mechanism, or we spin over it as a way to never have to experience it. Mental strategies are a form of spinning over our pain so we never have to experience it. We might philosophize about every aspect of our pain to avoid having to actually feel through it.
Selling Your Soul
This philosophizing is incredibly limiting, and yet we can create such vivid intellectual avoidance strategies that we attract energy which reinforces our strategy and actually shows up in our life as thriving—temporarily.
That’s what selling your soul to the devil looks like in actual practice. You barter with reality and say: “I’m willing to never question where my power comes from and what my true motivations are so long as you keep giving me the ability to impress everyone around me so I never have to feel my pain.”
Your Mind as Ally or Enemy
Your mind and its creations can be your greatest ally or your greatest enemy. When we fall in love with our own creations they have a tendency of turning on us. Knowing how our mind is operating and understanding where each thought originates from is vital to operating at superhuman levels.
That superhuman self starts with being absolutely honest about your pain and how the experience or avoidance of it motivates you.
True Power
The healing of your pain does not come from blaming someone else. Blaming others can be a source of power, absolutely, great power, but it’s pirate power—cowardly and fleeting.
True power comes from a deeply honest permeation of all the hurt you’ve ever felt in your life and a massive longing to give and receive love.
The Quantum Computer
The permeation of our deepest pain and fear brings our emotional network back online. Our emotional network is our quantum computer and makes us capable of processing reality with incredible efficiency.
This efficiency manifests in our life as: Improved memory. Perfect health. Massive ahas and cognition. Masterful split-second decision making. Keen intuition. A knowing of where each thought originated from. Richer relationships and experiences. A deep understanding of love and its power.
Connecting Brain to Heart
But all of this efficiency starts by linking the mental dimension with the emotional. Connecting the brain’s hard drive to the heart’s quantum computing network.
We do that by feeling all of our feelings fully. By looking at all of our pain and experiencing it in its entirety.
Mental strategies will only get us 10-percent of the way. If you’re seeing massive success with mental strategies alone, imagine how that will exponentially grow when you bring the other 90-percent of your potential, your emotional network, back online.
Underneath Pain Lives Power
Underneath our pain lives infinite power. Power which can never be subjected to sabotage or recession. The question is whether we have the courage to face our deepest fears and pain, experience them fully, and expand beyond that into infinite potential.
I believe we each have the ability to do so. But do we have the courage?
This is shadow work in action.
If you’re ready to feel what you’ve been numbing, explore the Shadow Work practices.