When we learn to feel our big feelings fully without trying to make them go away, something mystical happens: we end up knowing exactly what we need to know, when we need to know it. That's what abundance is.
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A mystical, psychological reinterpretation of the Bible for modern life. Spiritual growth without dogma. 66+ books of symbolism, emotional healing, and inner transformation.
Start ReadingThe emotional sobriety practice. Simple, grounded methods to feel what you've been avoiding, integrate what you've been hiding, and stop the patterns that keep running your life.
Begin the WorkAI-powered creative and thinking systems I actually use to write, research, and build without losing depth or voice. AI as an amplifier, not a replacement.
Explore the ToolsBottom-of-funnel SEO that finds readers already searching for what you write about. Build a body of work that compounds, not content that disappears.
See the ServicesDeep reflections on spirituality, identity, creativity, and personal evolution. A living library for people who think in layers.
Browse the LibraryThe internet tells you to pick one topic, repeat one idea forever, and compress yourself into something an algorithm can easily classify.
But real spirituality expands you. It doesn't simplify you.
Real growth widens your range. It doesn't force you to narrow it.
Real creativity asks for your whole self. Not a tiny, optimized fragment.
If you've felt friction trying to fit into one lane, one theme, or one identity, there's a reason: you've been trying to discipline yourself into a box instead of clearing the emotional weight that keeps you scattered.
The answer isn't more focus. It's more presence. When you stop running from what you feel, clarity shows up on its own.
This isn't religious dogma. This isn't vague self-help. This isn't algorithm-approved content designed to perform. (It just happens to.)
This is spirituality built on one premise: the inner work makes the outer work actually work.
My work weaves together:
It's for messy, curious, multi-passionate humans who are growing, changing, and building as they go.
Do the emotional work. Then watch everything else get easier.
In this conversation with Ben Laws, I break down the practice that changed everything for me: feeling your feelings fully, without trying to fix, escape, or spiritually bypass them.
Essays on emotional sobriety, spiritual growth, and the inner work that makes everything else work better.
Most of your worst decisions were made while emotionally drunk. A mystical reading of Genesis and Job reveals why big feelings aren't problems to rush through - they're a curriculum. The reward for sitting with them is expanded emotional capacity.
Spiritual GrowthI watched Andrew Wommack preach on identity in Christ and couldn't stop taking notes. Because underneath the evangelical language, there's a mystical reading that flips everything. What if you don't have to believe first to experience God? What if presence is the whole point?
Spiritual GrowthWhat happens when you use AI as a writing partner for a year? Not productivity. Not automation. Something stranger. A mirror that made me more human.
Becoming an AI-Augmented PolymathI told Claude Code to excavate my digital past from the Wayback Machine. It found 18 years of writing I'd been hiding from clients. Here's how I turned suppressed authenticity into a system for training AI on my own voice.
Becoming an AI-Augmented PolymathScott Adams' deathbed acceptance of Jesus sparked debate. But the mystics would say salvation isn't a binary switch. It's a spectrum determined by how much you can feel.
Spiritual Growth
Writer, creator, mystic, and builder behind the Jesus Lightning book series.
I've spent decades exploring spiritual frameworks, emotional healing, creativity, personal development, entrepreneurship, and technology. What I've learned: all of it works better when you've done the inner work first.
Feel what you've been avoiding, and everything else starts to click.
I don't believe in the one-lane creator myth. I believe your inner world is the most powerful technology you have.
More About Me →Every week I share something I've been processing that made life work a little better.
Subscribe →I've been writing publicly for 18 years, 6 months, and 23 days. That's a lot of coffee, books, late-night conversations, and lived experience. Some ideas here I've deepened. Others I've outgrown. A few have transformed into something I couldn't have imagined when I first wrote them.
Everything stays online. Not because it's all "right," but because it's all real. Growth leaves a trail, and people further behind on the path often recognize something in an older version of you that helps them take the next step.
One note for context: I've been sober for 9 years, 2 months, and 9 days. Anything written before that may contain questionable party logic, unfinished thinking, or raw edges. It's part of the arc.
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The work isn't becoming something new.
It's feeling what you've been avoiding.
When you stop running, everything else starts working.
This is a place where nothing has to be edited out.
